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HEALING
A big thank you to all of you who have been praying along side me and my family for the last 20 1/2 months.
As you know I was involved in an accident which had left me in severe pain and having vertigo symptoms. On Saturday evening, while at the Easter Vigil Mass at St. Mary's, our home church, the pain vanished from the base of my head/ neck and I haven't had a vertigo episode since (even with having done 4 cartwheels in the parking lot to show the kids).
Praise God!
My muscles are a little soar and my energy level is catching up for having been non active for the last while. I trust God will take care of that as well.
Christ is Risen, Truly he is, as he said he would.
He has taken our sins and illness!
I will start blogging as well, I have so much to write and share.
As you know I was involved in an accident which had left me in severe pain and having vertigo symptoms. On Saturday evening, while at the Easter Vigil Mass at St. Mary's, our home church, the pain vanished from the base of my head/ neck and I haven't had a vertigo episode since (even with having done 4 cartwheels in the parking lot to show the kids).
Praise God!
My muscles are a little soar and my energy level is catching up for having been non active for the last while. I trust God will take care of that as well.
Christ is Risen, Truly he is, as he said he would.
He has taken our sins and illness!
I will start blogging as well, I have so much to write and share.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
speaking to me
Read Ezekiel Chapter 3 perferably from the NRSV
and see if these same verses stick out to you as they did for me...
Ezekiel 3:8
... do not fear them or be dismayed at their looks,....
I need to remember that when people give me and my kids those nasty looks at mass.
Ezekiel 3:11
...go to the exiles. to your people, and speak to them. Say to them. "Thus syas the Lord God"; WHETHER THEY HEAR OR REFUSE TO HEAR.
I truly don't need to worry if they response to the message God gives me to give them. I just need to give it.
Ezekiel 3:14
...The Spirit lifeted me up and bore me away; I WENT IN BITTERNESS IN THE HEAT OF MY SPIRIT, the hand of th Lord being strong upon me....
Even if I don't feel like doing something, but I know the Lord wants me to do it.,... do it. and it's fine not to feel like doing things you need to do but do it.
and see if these same verses stick out to you as they did for me...
Ezekiel 3:8
... do not fear them or be dismayed at their looks,....
I need to remember that when people give me and my kids those nasty looks at mass.
Ezekiel 3:11
...go to the exiles. to your people, and speak to them. Say to them. "Thus syas the Lord God"; WHETHER THEY HEAR OR REFUSE TO HEAR.
I truly don't need to worry if they response to the message God gives me to give them. I just need to give it.
Ezekiel 3:14
...The Spirit lifeted me up and bore me away; I WENT IN BITTERNESS IN THE HEAT OF MY SPIRIT, the hand of th Lord being strong upon me....
Even if I don't feel like doing something, but I know the Lord wants me to do it.,... do it. and it's fine not to feel like doing things you need to do but do it.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
the house is messy... but I need to blog.
Jacob school journey is really getting to me. No one should say to a child "School will be so exciting you will learn so many new things!" Of course Jacob has learned new things,... but do they really have to do with Bomb threats and Halloween.
Honestly with the work coming home with him, all I can say is that he is making progress in pattern making, otherwise he is learning one number per month this for a child who is adding and subtracting at home. Alphabet wise one work sheet has come home on the letter I, and they claim the a straight line is not the letter I, I felt like calling and asking them to look at a computer keyboard and describe the letter I to me. At least on all our key board it is a straight line up and down. Jacob is reading things all around us, including instruction on how I should make the Kraft dinner in the microwave because it's quicker! Many people are telling to stop doing work with him at home, but he loves it. Would you tell a child who loves playing hockey, to stop practicing and playing hockey until the peers in his age group all catch up! No. Then how can people honestly say to stop doing activities and games with Jacob regarding maths and reading.
So everyone is telling me that kindergarten, especially kindergarten is simply for the social element. Well, I have issues there as well. Jacob is in a spit grade class, meaning that his class has some Junior Kindergarten kids and some Senior Kindergarten kids. After months at school, Jacob is still struggling with names of some of the SK kids, put after taking to his teacher I can understand. As she tries to separate them as much as possible. I wished I would of know that, I would not be asking for names of these older children. But the straw that is braking this camel's back is the fact that my sweet sensitive boy is being teased at school. Today is day three of this trial, and I am afraid it will not be ending soon. I fear they have realized that he is sensitive and they can bother him. The bullies are in the Sk component of the class. Jacob already doesn't want to go to school, as he would much rather work from home like daddy does. At least at home he would do challenging work and have intellectual stimulation. But now the social component to which we are telling him is why he goes to school is being less then beautiful... it's actually ugly because it is not enough bulling that something can really be done, but it is enough for our sons confidence to be eroded.
I was hoping that school was going to be like camp for me. I hated going to camp as a kid, but as an adult I loved helping out with camps (summer camps, march break camps, ....) I was hoping that even though I hate school as a child I would like school as a parents of a child in school. But I am growing emotionally exhausted at the battles of sending my child to a place he simply is not wanting to go, and that I am wondering how much damage is being done to his confidence.
It is really difficult for me to relive my early school year experience as I watch and try to help my little one going through so many similar experiences.
On a plus side, on Monday's swimming class Jacob jump into the water from a standing position all by himself. Something he has been working on for many many months, and he did it!
Jacob school journey is really getting to me. No one should say to a child "School will be so exciting you will learn so many new things!" Of course Jacob has learned new things,... but do they really have to do with Bomb threats and Halloween.
Honestly with the work coming home with him, all I can say is that he is making progress in pattern making, otherwise he is learning one number per month this for a child who is adding and subtracting at home. Alphabet wise one work sheet has come home on the letter I, and they claim the a straight line is not the letter I, I felt like calling and asking them to look at a computer keyboard and describe the letter I to me. At least on all our key board it is a straight line up and down. Jacob is reading things all around us, including instruction on how I should make the Kraft dinner in the microwave because it's quicker! Many people are telling to stop doing work with him at home, but he loves it. Would you tell a child who loves playing hockey, to stop practicing and playing hockey until the peers in his age group all catch up! No. Then how can people honestly say to stop doing activities and games with Jacob regarding maths and reading.
So everyone is telling me that kindergarten, especially kindergarten is simply for the social element. Well, I have issues there as well. Jacob is in a spit grade class, meaning that his class has some Junior Kindergarten kids and some Senior Kindergarten kids. After months at school, Jacob is still struggling with names of some of the SK kids, put after taking to his teacher I can understand. As she tries to separate them as much as possible. I wished I would of know that, I would not be asking for names of these older children. But the straw that is braking this camel's back is the fact that my sweet sensitive boy is being teased at school. Today is day three of this trial, and I am afraid it will not be ending soon. I fear they have realized that he is sensitive and they can bother him. The bullies are in the Sk component of the class. Jacob already doesn't want to go to school, as he would much rather work from home like daddy does. At least at home he would do challenging work and have intellectual stimulation. But now the social component to which we are telling him is why he goes to school is being less then beautiful... it's actually ugly because it is not enough bulling that something can really be done, but it is enough for our sons confidence to be eroded.
I was hoping that school was going to be like camp for me. I hated going to camp as a kid, but as an adult I loved helping out with camps (summer camps, march break camps, ....) I was hoping that even though I hate school as a child I would like school as a parents of a child in school. But I am growing emotionally exhausted at the battles of sending my child to a place he simply is not wanting to go, and that I am wondering how much damage is being done to his confidence.
It is really difficult for me to relive my early school year experience as I watch and try to help my little one going through so many similar experiences.
On a plus side, on Monday's swimming class Jacob jump into the water from a standing position all by himself. Something he has been working on for many many months, and he did it!
Monday, October 12, 2009
not forgotten
My to do list seems to be never ending.... I really wish does people who said "having Jacob in school would make life easier " would raise up so I can have a little talking with them. What is easier about it, I really don't know. Perphas it is because I can a whole 2 hours in the morning of no thaving Jacob present with me and the twins. But the getting him out the door, getting him to school with all the necessairy things, the "oh got to go pick him up NOW!" and cannot forget the "re-intergration" to the family once he is home,.... none of this is easier. But overall I am getting more use to it all. We just had a 6 day brake from it all. Jacob missed 2 days of school due to illness, and then had a PD day, a weekend, and a statutory holiday... to total 6 days at home. He is really excited to go to school tomorrow.
Things have been challenging emotionally for me, and the routine of everything seems to want to kill me. But I will get through it all as God is giving sufficient grace for the moment.
I have to go ... get my 8 hours sleep or else my hubby will turn me alarm clock off and make me sleep in and not get up early enough to get my morning "me" time. Which will cause my whole day to be oscar the grouchist.
Will try to be more punctual at blogging.
Thanks for reading.
Things have been challenging emotionally for me, and the routine of everything seems to want to kill me. But I will get through it all as God is giving sufficient grace for the moment.
I have to go ... get my 8 hours sleep or else my hubby will turn me alarm clock off and make me sleep in and not get up early enough to get my morning "me" time. Which will cause my whole day to be oscar the grouchist.
Will try to be more punctual at blogging.
Thanks for reading.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
school starts
Tomorrow morning is a morning I have dread for over a year. Jacob starts school. I have put a good front for him (at least I hope I have) about how excited I am for him. I just feel like I am losing my little boy. It being back so many of the emotions of his birth. There I was cuddle and breastfeeding or I should say learning to breastfeed my first born son, when all of sudden the whole world got crazy. They, the nurses and doctor, took him away! They started doing all these things to him. Next thing I new I was separated from him. I was made to watch video on how to care for my newborn son but could not hold him. I was brought to a room and told to rest. Rest, I didn't know what was going on with my son, how could I rest. Once everyone left me in my room, I wobbled himself to a near by wheel chair and wheeled myself through half of the hospital. Finally getting to be beside my son. I was allowed to stick my hand in a little hole and touch him, but I couldn't hold him. My husband tried to explain to me what all the wires were for but my mind was a blur. I stayed there by his side for hours and the other hours I was made to sit in a little room with stuff on my breast trying to get milk in so I could eventually breastfeed my son. ... in the mean time I had to deal with feels of lost. I really felt like my son was not mine anymore, he was the nursing staff. I had to have permission to touch him, the oxygen levels and warmth of the incubator would drop to low when the little window was open to long. I had to eventually be discharged from the hospital without Jacob. I had to face coming to a house fully ready to greet a newborn baby but without my baby in my arms. It was some of the hardest time I have faced. and again... I sit here with the ticker boom going.... of school. The exception this time is that this will not end anytime soon... but again, I will not be able to be with him to help him or cheer him on, again I will have to trust government paid professionals to take care of his needs, and again tears are streaking down my face... it seems like I was just getting to enjoy this incredible boy God has graced me with and now I have to share him with the world. I know there is a joy in that, but right now all I see is tears and pain in my heart.
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